♥ Monday, November 10, 2008 ♥
I juz realized that im not ready to jump into a new relationship. Eventhough my first wasn’t that perfect and im not sure wether i can called it a ‘relationship’ coz the only thing that we had was a friendship or it was. Before i knew him everything was perfectly fine. Im not that kind of gurl which can easily fall in love. I used to be heartless..emotionless...and kind of egoistic. The thought of having a relationship at that time never poped in my head. I was cool befriending with my guyfriends which i had a hell of gued tymes. Hanging out with them eased my mind.
I had a gued tyme until i dun even realized that my gued guyfriends actually falled for me. I thought it was ridiculious to haf ‘another’ relationship besides ‘juz a friend’. I was clueless at that time coz the feeling of wanting to be loved n loved sumone somehow rather wasn’t my agenda at that tyme whereby MOST of friends are already in a ‘relationship’. I wasn’t envious towards them though but it was kinda funny looking back at those memories whereby u became the ‘observer’ of ur friends relationship.
But as i grow, the feeling of ‘to be in love’ kinda like emerge from inside of me day by day. As the feelin grew i never give it a damn care wether to adhere to it or not. Eventhough i used to be a heartless plus cold plus egostic plus emtionless gurl, without i noticed, love itself came to me. Yes. I never fall in love and once i’ve falled in love, i was helplessly drowned into it. Drowned to it until i couldn’t differentiate which is which and what is what. How ironic was that? It was a cliche..i know..head over heels..go goo goo gaga over him..yeap. I know.
Love is crazy or the people involved are crazy? Love is blind or the people involved are blind? Who could honestly be rational when they are in love? How can we be damn sure that he is actually ‘the one’? No one was sure actually coz ive been asking around how sure are they towards thier partners n thier answers towards the question surprisingly came out multi versioned!
To whom it may concerned if u happened to bumped into my blog n happened to read it with out intention, just to let you know..i would thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for changing my perception towards love. Even though it didn’t really work out bitwin us n we never thought of picking up where we left, i felt really really blessed coz u’ve entered my life. Blessed that ALLAH aktuali give me the chance to get to noe u even it wasn’t for long tyme. Btw..Mabruk asyan ana dapat dengar dari sahabat ente sudah pengganti yang lebih baik Dan doakan yang terbaik untok ana jugak. Moga-moga pengganti yang mengganti lebih baik dan akan menjadi yang lebih terbaik dari sebelumnya..
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